just stuff.

I thought I'd spend my time doing something useful and I came up with this... it's definitely better than 140 characters. Questions are welcome ^.^ <3

I’m home alone right now… And all you fellow little monsters know what that means… GAGA FULL BLAST PLS. K THANKS.

disincentive:

bulimickittens:

dear all my lovely followers,

i’m posting this to tell you all goodbye.

i’m sorry that i haven’t been on much, i’m sorry i haven’t been here for you guys even though i know you all seem to be here for me. it’s not fair, and i’m sorry.

lately, things have just sunk so low, and it’s made me realise that it’s time for me to go. my mind has finally realised it too, that being alive just isn’t working for me, and it’s finally clicked, finally my mind has lost the little part of it that wanted to keep living and to keep pushing through. i’m glad that it’s finally happened, because it was so hard to fight with myself between living and dying, but now, i’ve finally won, and death it will be.

it’s too late to say or do anything that will change my mind, i’m certain of this.

i can’t find anything to live for anymore, the only thing i want is to be dead, i don’t care what happens to me when i die, i have my beliefs of a happier place, but i don’t even care if i go to hell, because anything is better than this life.

i can’t express how sorry i am that it’s come to this. i never wanted to hurt anyone other than myself. and i’m sorry. i’m just so sorry. i think i’m filled with so much guilt over everything, the only thing i can do is apologise for everything.

i just can’t live with this pain anymore, and i’ve been trying hard for so long to make it better, but i just can’t fix anything, and i’ve given up on trying, and i’m sorry for that too.

please just know that this is what i want, if you want the best for me, and want me to be happy, you’ll let me go through with this. please understand that this is the only option i have, please understand that i can’t do this anymore. i just can’t.

again, i’m so sorry. please stay strong, all of you who are struggling, and remember that your life is worth it. i know it’s contradictory, but your lives will get better, and you will find things to live for, you will be happy. all the terrible things in your lives with eventually go away. it will be okay, i promise.

i will still be here until at least friday night, but after then, if i stop posting, you will know why. i think it’s better writing this in advanced, i don’t know.

but just know that this is my goodbye.

thank you all for everything you’ve done, without tumblr, i wouldn’t have been able to hold on this long.

goodbye,

love olivia. ♥

this is so sad :’(, rip beautiful

(via cutd33per-crylonger)

red-lipstick: Decomposerdoll aka Sara Dunn - A New Addition To The Family, 2012                Paintings: Acrylics on Red Paper

red-lipstick:

Decomposerdoll aka Sara Dunn - A New Addition To The Family, 2012                Paintings: Acrylics on Red Paper

  • girl/boy: *diagnosed with anorexia*
  • everyone: kids in 3rd world countries would give anything for that food, and you refuse it!
  • girl/boy: *diagnosed as bulimic*
  • everyone: cancer patients with give anything to be able to keep their food in, and you choose to throw it up!
  • girl/boy: *diagnosed as a binge eater*
  • everyone: chill your fat ass out, some kids eat once a day!
  • girl/boy: *suicidal*
  • everyone: people die every day, you should be grateful for your life!
  • girl/boy: *self harms*
  • everyone: lots of people have it worse than you, be grateful about how good you have it!
  • girl/boy: *has anxiety*
  • everyone: stop freaking out over everything, it's not that big of a deal!
  • girl/boy:
  • girl/boy: yep that fixed everything thanks
That&#8217;s what I get for using a blunt blade&#8230;

That’s what I get for using a blunt blade…

darkangelsweetnightmare asked: I won't tell you that everything will be okay 'cause i am no able to predict the future but I will tell you that I DO care and that everything you need you can count on me and btw ur beautiful ♥

Thank you so much ^.^ x

greaterthandepression asked: hey if you want to speak to someone i will listen to you. take a look at my blog and send me a message. keep fighting x

thanks :), I’ll check it out

Even if nobody listens to me on this it still helps let out my feelings and thoughts without having to be judged by people I know

trials--of--life asked: stay strong beautiful <3

This is the first time anyone has ever messages me to say this so it means a lot, thank you

It’s freaking me out thinking about possible mental illnesses :(

some people don’t realise how if difficult it is to stop, including me